September 19, 2014

24 Weeks

Size:  A big juicy cantaloupe! Apparently she weighs 1.5 lbs which is just crazy to me. 

Weight gain:  Guys, I am up to 17 pounds so far. I am averaging about 4 lbs a month.  Apparently there is nothing abnormal or alarming about this to anyone besides me. 

Maternity clothes:   The clothes struggle is real. I am still wearing some non-maternity tanks, leggings, dresses, tee shirts.  But getting dressed is always quite the challenge, especially for work. I have to break down soon and make some more purchases. 

Stretch marks:  So I have found a few. They are on my hips/butt.  And so it starts.

Sleep:  Sleeping still sucks. I have a pregnancy pillow but every night my legs ache so bad that I spend time trying to stretch and change positions to help.

Gender:  Girlie Girl. We have another maternal fetal appointment next week and I know Joe will be asking for confirmation, ha!

Movement:  Little girl is a moving machine and I love it! I know I can expect to feel it in the AM, after I eat and in the evenings. She is starting to move around much more so where I feel her is always changing.

Best moment this week:  Our whole weekend was amazing (per my post on Monday). 

Looking forward to: Our last ultrasound at maternal fetal next week.  So sad after having so many ultrasounds at the beginning. I might break down and get a 3D/4D just to get another peak at her.

Food Cravings: Carbs, chips, Mexican, fruit.

Food Aversions:  bell peppers

Labor Signs:  Had a scare this week and last.  Dr. Google told me it could be pre-term labor. I panicked. All is fine. Note to self- say no to Dr Google!

What I miss:  Finally booze has become something I miss. We went to a friend’s house and it was perfect weather and everyone was drinking it up and I would have loved to join them. 

Symptoms:  Lots of movement, heartburn, baby brain, lack of sleep and starting to generally just feel big.

Nursery:  It is prepped and ready for painting! Can’t wait to have that done and be able to start the decorating.

Mood:  I am still one happy girl.  I really love being pregnant and feel so blessed that we are where we are today.  I think back to those 2 years of trying and all we went through and it seems like so long ago.  While life is so great these days I will never take for granted our journey to becoming parents.

September 14, 2014

I Live For Little Moments Like This

This weekend was really special. There were a few little moments that took this sappy heart and made it even more full.

Saturday after spending time with friends we were forced to head home to spend the evening working on the nursery.  Joe is going to the Bahamas this week for a bachelor party and my mom is coming to help paint and get things moving while he is gone.  The nursery was once a nursery for a little boy and the previous owner painted multi-color stripes all along the bottom of the room which left grooves in the walls where each color started.  Joe has to sand and get all the edges smooth so there is no evidence of what used to be.  So while we wanted to stay and play I had to get Joe to spend some time in there while I had him.

In between sanding, the dogs and I would come in and sit and chat with Joe all night.  We were listening to music and I mentioned to Joe a song that makes me think of him and our little girl when I hear it.  We put it on over the speakers and took it all in.

The song is Kenny Chesney's "There Goes My Life".  This song is about a dad who goes from finding out he will be having a baby and thinking his life is over to that baby girl becoming his whole world.  I started crying as soon as the music started playing and Joe was poking fun at what a sap I am.  That was until the end of the song when I looked over at him and he had tears streaming down his face.  Things are becoming so real in this journey and it was so special to have that moment, in Charlie's room, realizing our future is so bright.

The second special moment happened on Sunday.  I have been feeling Charlie move for weeks now and every time I grab Joe's hand and wait for him to feel she stops moving.  Joe has been saying how much he wants to feel her because that will be another way for him to feel connected to her.  So while cheering on our Browns we finally had that moment.  She has been kicking super low but she must have moved and ended up kicking right under my belly button. I grabbed Joe's hand and she kicked twice right after.  It was so cool seeing Joe's reaction to feeling her.

These are moments that don't mean anything to anyone but us but I know I remember them forever.

September 7, 2014

Things In My Brain

Thought I would start this week off by sharing some things that are on my brain that aren't all necessarily baby related. But let's be honest, it's like the only thing and best thing to happen to me so I can never stray long.

And speaking of babies and brains…. baby brain is real.  My first real experience was at work on Friday. I was talking to my sister and got out of my car in the parking garage.  I got all the way through my building and up to my office and thankfully realized I didn't have my keys with me.  All the way back to find them still in the ignition.  I texted my Mom and Sister to which they responded "Just wait for Mommy Brain" and "Granny brain is even worse".   Is this what we have to look forward to? Living in a foggy haze for years?

I digress…..

Beyonce is just Beyonce: Yes, I said it. I seriously do not understand the hype. Can she sing? Sure. Can she dance? Def.  But is she worth the hysteria and "Bae" and "Queen B" comments?  Uh negative.  Feel free to keep on worshipping her toned thighs, risqué performing outfits and mega watt smile.  I'll be here probably skipping "Crazy in Love" on my Britney Spears Pandora Station.


Bell Peppers:  Now this one is definitely hormones but bell peppers are my arch nemesis right now. I used to think it was only grilled.  Then I sauteed and ate raw and about barfed my way into non-existence.  Thankfully the sight of them is ok because Joe eats at least one bell pepper every night as a snack.  <-------- Weirdo.

My Direct TV with no FXX:  Joe and I have a few TV shows that we can watch every episode a million times and never get sick of it: Family Guy, The Office, The League and It's Always Sunny.   Fall always means that our favorite shows are coming back on TV time and we just learned that our Direct TV package does not include FXX network.  We have like 1,000 channels and we don't get FXX?  So now we cannot watch the new season of either The League or Sunny?  This is unacceptable!

Pumpkin Spice Lattes In 90+ degree heat:  While it is September it is also hot as balls still in the Carolinas.  Fall is far from here and yet chicks across the Queen City are busting down Starbucks' doors to get the coveted PSL.   Is it only me or does it just feel wrong to drink a pumpkin, fall beverage as you have swamp ass just walking to the corner?  Sure, some are getting it iced but that does not make it any better in my eyes.  My first pumpkin treat will be once there are boots and scarves on my body and the leaves are changing.  Carry on Summer Haters.

Jelena:  The combo of Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez.  They just annoy me. Either be together or don't.  Not that hard.

Perfect Baby Shower Outfit:  My baby shower is in less than 4 weeks.  I realized today that I don't own anything appropriate for a fall in Cleveland shower. Because, let's be honest,  it could either be a perfect fall day or snowing and miserable in October in Ohio.  It's hard to plan ahead and find something appropriate for both.  I guess I could find a great dress and wear with boots. If freezing then add tights and a scarf.  Great, now where to start? I have been perusing ASOS maternity shop and a few boutiques.  Hopefully will find the perfect dress soon.


September 3, 2014

Hilton Head Vacation 2014

September is here and that means that Summer is almost over. While Fall is my favorite season I would never wish away Summer (side eye all you pumpkin spice drinkers already).  I am happy to report that we closed out this Summer with a week long vacation in Hilton Head and it was just what the doctor ordered.

My Mom rented us an amazing house on Palmetto Dunes complete with a private pool and lots of space to run around in.  The weather was nothing short of fabulous and we spent the week beach hopping, bike riding, eating, drinking and laughing.  It was so nice to relax and not worry about work or getting the nursery done or anything.  On the last day when my sister and her clan packed up first and left there were heavy tears being shed by this hormonal lady.  Living in Charlotte is so amazing but after a full week with family it really makes you realize how much you miss them when they are gone.

Here is our week in pictures.

First day- Mom breaking out the Jamo

Joe's mission was to catch Nolan a turtle. Day #3 this was accomplished. Days 3-5 were then spent trying to catch an alligator. 

Pip and Nolan.  "Here comes another" was a popular beach phrase as we sat in the waves. 

Start of the sand castle building. I supervised and made sure my sunburn didn't spread.  Pregnancy burn is real. 

Nolan patiently waiting while Joe perfected his castle creation

A skillfully crafted masterpiece. 

And then he made his move…..

Couples night out! Happily sipping on a delicious virgin marg while the rest enjoyed a big ole pitcher

My baby daddy is so handsome! I'm one lucky lady. 

Such a fun night out!

22 week bump pic. Home girl is sitting high. 

The scenery was so beautiful walking to the beach

Miss Hollyn getting a photo shoot at sunset. Hoping Charlie is as cute as this peanut. 

Day trip to Savannah.  Small maternity shoot coming soon. 

My little bump and nephew

While vacation is over, our baby shower is coming up in Cleveland in a few weeks and I am so looking forward to seeing my family again soon.  I am also so lucky that so many of my best friends will be coming into town and will be there to celebrate Baby Charlie.  This will be our last trip home until after she is born and I will be entering my 3rd trimester.  Time couldn't be going any faster!

August 23, 2014

20 Weeks… HALF WAY THERE!!

Size:  A banana! How cute!

Weight gain:  I have gained 13 pounds so far. Gulp! I am having a hard time with this because 6 of that was gained just in the last month. But my doctor was not concerned and baby is healthy so that's all that matters. 

Maternity clothes:   The only maternity clothes I wear are jeans. Other than that, I am taking advantage of some larger pieces my sister gave me and I have bought in the past to get me by.  Soon I will need to get a few maternity work pants once maxi season will no longer be appropriate.

Stretch marks:  None yet. Using my oil every day.

Sleep:  Sleep kind of sucks. Because I have to sleep on my side I find my legs and knees ache all through the night and it wakes me up. Is this normal?

Gender:  GIRL!!! Charlotte Jane.  Now that we know things have gotten real. I love being able to talk about her with a name. I love finally visualizing my future and her nursery and everything else.

Movement:  Finally, we have movement! It started right about 18.5 weeks and hasn’t stopped. I can feel her best while I am laying down or when I am sitting at my desk at work. I love it so much and cannot wait until Joe can feel her too.

Best moment this week:  One night last week we spent cleaning out the nursery and then sitting on the floor with the dogs and just talked about what the room will look like and what life will be like once Charlie is here.  A mini fridge was definitely talked about :)

Looking forward to: Our upcoming trip to Hilton Head. I can’t wait to get a full week with my family at the beach.

Food Cravings: Thankfully starting to want salads and veggies.  No real cravings, except I always am in the mood for Mexican.  Fruit.  White cheddar popcorn.

Food Aversions:  Grilled vegetables

Labor Signs:  Nada

What I miss:  Still nothing.  I even bought a new bikini for our vacation to fit my newly “popped” figure and I really love the way I look in it.  Who knew pregnant bikini shopping would be way more enjoyable than normal!

Symptoms:. Came down with a cold this week.  Sore throat and runny nose not fun. But nothing really pregnancy related, which is nice now that I can feel Charlie moving around and know things are ok in there.

Nursery:  Slowly coming along. Moved everything out of the closet and have started organizing and getting everything moved out.  Have a weekend set for my Mom to come into town to help paint and get it baby girl ready.

Mood:   Happy Go Lucky. Life is so good these days and aside from getting over myself with this weight gain I am loving this second trimester. 

August 13, 2014

Thank Heaven For Little Girls

If you haven't seen it on social media, or couldn't tell from the title of this post then let me spell it out for you..


What about that gender reveal photo shoot you say?  Ooops, is my answer.  Joe and I planned this super fun gender reveal with my sister months ago.  We bought super soakers and pink/blue paint and were going to have this amazing full on paint fight on the beach.  Pretty awesome right? The only problem was that our appointment was 8/12 and we weren't going to be able to do the shoot until 8/24.

When we found out we were having twins I convinced Joe to do a gender reveal. If we were only going to be pregnant once then I wanted the reveal to be special.  As time went on after we lost Baby B, I didn't really care about doing a big reveal but Joe seemed so into it and my sister so I wanted to wait. Fast forward to the day of our ultrasound.  The tech asked if we wanted to find out and I said "no" and Joe said "yes".  HUH?  He admitted to only wanting to do the reveal for me. He did not want to wait.  I didn't want to wait either but I also didn't want to find out in that room with a stranger.  So while we chatted away she started doing her work on my tummy and said "if you don't want to know then keep looking away".  I saw Joe's eyes dart to the screen.  I knew I couldn't really tell what we were seeing without being prompted so I let my eyes wander too and that's when it happened.

The tech wasn't just hovering over the goods.. She had already started typing "G".  We both looked at each other quickly and Joe asked "Are you saying it's a girl?".  "Congratulations, yes it's a girl".   I just started laughing and smiling while poor Joe asked her to check again. Haha.  So while not the grand reveal we were envisioning, it was a great moment in my life I won't ever forget.

Thoughts on having a baby girl:

I have known this whole time I was having a girl. Aside from those two dreams where it was a boy, I really knew in my heart it was a girl.  On my dad's side of the family we have 13 girls and 2 boys (Nolan and our newest baby Andrew).  I grew up surrounded by girls so a girl feels right to me.  

But having a girl is also scary. I remember what it was like being a teenager with raging hormones and really disliking my parents at times. Now seeing my little sisters in their teens, it's a whole different ball game.  You don't only have to worry about boys but now social media, clothes, everything is so much more intense.

I look forward to the tea parties, the dolls, dress up, shopping and all things girls.  And I know without a shadow of a doubt that Joe is going to be head over heels in love with our little girl. I see his sweet relationship with our niece Emily and how close he is to her. I watch him text and banter with my sisters and hear him so protective of them.   He is a tough ass on the outside but a big ole softie at heart and I know our little girl is going to be so lucky to have him as a daddy.

It feels so good finally knowing and now we can begin envisioning our future.  We have talked baby names for years and have had our girl's name set forever.  I have always loved boys names for girls. Some of my favorites are Kyle and Ryann.  Joe did not like these one bit.  Joe has been big on our names having meaning, being sentimental.  And then we found the perfect one...

Charlotte "Charlie" Jane Hawley

Charlotte is timeless; while Charlie allows me to have my boy name.  Charlotte is also the place where Joe and I became a family and that means so much to us. If we ever were to move, we will always have a piece of Charlotte with us.  Jane is my mother's middle name and it was important to us to include a part of her when selecting our name.

Life has never been sweeter.  Now it's time to start planning the nursery and getting things ready for Charlie's arrival in a few short months!

August 3, 2014

Loving Lately

So we didn't make it Charleston this past weekend, boo :(   The weather was calling for rain the entire time and since we live so close we decided to postpone until this coming weekend in order to maximize our trip.  We spent this past weekend doing more house work, grocery shopping, dinner at a friend's, etc.  Having fun productive weekends make the miserable weather a little more tolerable. But now I am ready to get my butt to the beach!

Today I wanted to share some of the things I am loving lately.  

* Water can get boring and in the summer time I always love having a cocktail.  These days my favorite drink is a La Croix Grapefruit with a splash of pink grapefruit juice. Squeeze a little lime and serve in a rocks glass and I dare so I would almost think there was vodka in it.

Thirst Quencher

* While at dinner at our friends' house on Saturday they gifted us the sweetest, softest blanket.  I can't wait to have Baby H snuggle with this sweet gift.

* I have always been a huge egg salad fan. I am sure to some that is just plain digesting. Since becoming pregnant I have loved them even more.  But none compare to the sandwiches at Half Penny's.  If you work uptown and like egg salad then you MUST go and get one. You won't be disappointed. Oh and here's a little secret- they are the Friday special.

* I have been reading a lot of books lately. I have read a few really good ones that deserve being shared with you. 

Really engaging story that twists multiple characters together. 

Story about 4 teenagers with a shocking twist at the end that I never saw coming. Soo good!

Read this series really fast. Each book left me wanting more. 

True story.  Super long book that takes a few chapters to really get going but it is riveting. You follow Louis Zamperini as he heads to the Olympics and meets Hitler, fights in WW II, became lost at sea and fought off sharks and Japanese bombers and then became a Japanese POW.  Angelina Jolie is directing the movie version and I cannot wait to see it! 

* Lastly, my carb cravings have not slowed down in the 2nd trimester.  The past few weekends I have been wanting to make pancakes, which I never ever do.  I picked up the following mix which is organic, made of Ancient Grains and whole wheat flour and makes the fluffiest pancakes ever. 

As I finish typing this post on Sunday evening I am rushing to the couch to watch the first pre-season NFL football game.  Don't want Summer to be over but LOVING that football is back!!!